so it's way too early in my pregnancy to be losing sleep. however, it's not the baby keeping me awake, i don't know what it is. actually i do. it's either a 5-year-old, a 2-year-old or a 31-year-old. and once i'm up, i'm up. i can't go back to sleep sometimes for HOURS. and i usually end up on the couch watching tmz...after all...they own the best stories in hollywood. did you see brad pitt's motorcycle accident? i think i watched it 10 times thanks to dvr. it was hysterical (and no, he wasn't injured).
i digress.
it happened again last night. i was peacefully sleeping and i awoke to avery staring at me. she didn't say anything (or maybe she did??), she was just staring. i got her back in bed, snuggled back in my bed and....stared at the wall. i wasn't tired. it was 4:30 and for the first time in i don't know how long, i watched the sun rise. it was after 6 before i fell asleep and i will tell you - i was getting bitter. i knew the girls would be up early (avery's school program was today) and i knew i would be exhausted. both were true. so i got up and i did what all mothers do (well, most of the ones i know anyway) - i drank coffee (my first cup since august). and it was delicious and everything i dreamed it would be.
speaking of which, it's been so long since i have brewed coffee that i know my first pot will be gross - my mom made it today and hers is wonderful. but it's like you lose your touch. i like my coffee
anyway....i'm sure i will hit a wall at some point this evening - probably while i'm laying on my heating pad on the couch. but not before then...we have the lighting of the trees tonight in downtown fairhope...and dinner with new friends. ahhhh, friends.
so all of you new moms, or moms with new babies, you can call me at that 4am feeding. i am, more than likely, awake.
